| todays my bday arf !!! ^__^ |
[Jul. 15th, 2009|02:12 am] |
arf well im 31 today ohh what to do with a bondage husky on his bithday hmmmm *tail wags with antisapation* |
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| roomie needed for ac |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|05:46 pm] |
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1 time only offer who needs a room at ac? i got one opening in my room at the Courtyard the price will be 119$ anybody need spot for ac? come on im sure sombody needs a room i dont want to be forced to cancel and be out 350$ the cost of ac for me this year fursuit repairs and new gear come on i dont bite ^__^ |
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| in need a room for ac and a possible ride if anybody passes through Amsterdam NY on the way to ac |
[May. 29th, 2009|12:39 am] |
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| | home in Amsterdam NY | ] |
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wow ok its been a long time since i posted in my lj heh anyways its that time of the year again for me to go to ac if anybody has got room let me know so we can set up plans prior to ac do to the fact that last years ac was such a disaster for me i didnt get to enjoy ac last year do to a fursuit,room,ride issue so im hoping this years ac goes alot better so anybody has got space let me know also if anybody is passing through Amsterdam on the was to ac and are willing to give me a ride let me know as well im willing to pay for gas etc arf ^__^ i hope to see everybody at ac *tail wags* ^__^ |
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| song in dream |
[Feb. 5th, 2009|05:33 pm] |
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| |  ughhh what is this song | ] |
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arf ok does anybody know who does this song i heard in a furcon dream i had last night yess i see furrys in my sleep lol ;-P this song was playing in the hotel lobby and i
dont know who does it and whats the name of the song but the lyrics go as "if i were to fall would you be there to recall or would you hide behind the ball im all out of time and if i were to fall would you help me through it all cause if i have to stumble if i have to crawl thats where you belong" then at the end of the song it goes fading out "im all out of time" anybody know what the name of this song or who dose it ? |
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| ughhhhh where did i go wrong |
[Jan. 21st, 2009|02:27 pm] |
arf im no longer on LI im back upstate ironicly in my old neighborhood In amsterdam Ny a just down around the corner from the house i grew up in im currently living across the street from the same Mc donalds i turned 5 year old in and had a brithday party in 1983 i know its quite ironic that im back home its nice to come back but the magic isnt here anymore and i miss my furry family *sighs* i feel so isolated here why did i even come back because i let my mom trick me wtf ok soo i guess i gota do what i gota do but im gonna do what i can get to get away i hope 2009 gets me away from my drunk mother weill see i do have alternitive to help get out this mess soon ill be out of here i hope because every day i gota deal with a drunk mother i so wana take my life just to be freed of her then maybe shed see how her abusive bahavior has caused me to die then you all can blame her for my untimely death sorry to be like this but but hope and petients are running scarce these days for me i feel helpless :- |
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| upstate |
[Jan. 19th, 2009|11:04 pm] |
Arf Hey everyone *tail wags* yess i still exist im at my cousins house in upstate ny im not staying here forever this is just until my cousin's g/f moves out of her house and moves here to my cousins house thn my mom and i are moving into her house temperally but im looking at moving to Mossouri in the spring the move was ok from Long island the former land lord was pissed that we left he went in snd locked the door afte we moved everything out but i guess its nice to see my family again cept i havent told them about my b/f yet soon enough they keep asking me what am i gonna do iuts like ummm dont persuade me to get a dead end job here its not happening im not staying in NY i found out my cousin likes bears heh furry in denial perhaps who knows im still without my husky suit:-( im miss him soo much but pay pal fucked up and i need to get a money order to matt yess matt i need to send you a money order sorry hon unless you can except a money gram let me know heh looks like im gonna get a white christmas this year theres like 2 1/2 feet of snow up here lol |
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| NY to Mossuri looking at moving |
[Nov. 30th, 2008|10:26 pm] |
im currently in Mossuri at a sleep inn hotel with matt huff i need to go back to NY tomorrow im going too need help help moving to Mossouri by Dec 20th can anybody help me out id greatly apperiate the help i need too be out of ny by Dec 20th can anybody help out i hope i dont ened up homeless *nervous* |
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| oh boy here we go again !!!!! |
[Nov. 17th, 2008|06:57 pm] |
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well it looks like ill need a place to store some things anybody want to help me move after MFF/thanksgiving my mother apperently lost her job and i cant stand to be around her anymore im gonna go apt hunting in MO while i visit matt huff durring thanksgiving week umm not sure what the outcome will be but i cant trust my mother when i leave im afraid she will try to run back upstate and not tell me seeing she has no job here shes trying to make it my problem trying to tell me shese gonna run and how its always my fault i can doo just fine without her ughhh i need to get away from this madness once and for all
btw yess ill be at MFF im not gonna let this stop me from going |
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| Fuck it i dont care anymore!!! :-( |
[Nov. 13th, 2008|12:39 pm] |
thats isreally nice now i got the landlord threatening me to pay my share of the rent WTF !!!? I CANT DOO MORE WITH LESS THIS IS BULLSHIT i cant make anymore time at work my hours were cut back do to them cutting back because of the economy
thats it im canceling my trip to MFF i because if i dont ill have no place to live when i come back like fuckin need this!! ya know fuck it !!! ill just live under a dam bridge either that or walk into the dam ocean and never look back because ive had it ive fucking had it!!! i cant live like this anymore and if i cant live in peace or happiness then whats the point of living im really better off dead *cries* |
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| work sux and mymoms being a dramatic drunk |
[Nov. 10th, 2008|02:29 pm] |
ok ive just about had it with my job im seriously ready to quit the general manager is becomming more and more arrogant i try to be nice instead he lkes to hire these kids and get al buddy buddy with them then treats me like crap like oh your work isnt good enough here anymore AND IM SICK OF ITT!!!!! IVE BEEN THERE LONGER DAMMIT WTF ?? then we got the franchise Quanity control that is causeing the sales to go down i cant even make over time its getting so bad the managers cutting my hours im sick of it and i got this Fursuit that wants to fail on me Seriously have i hit rock bottom here? and now since my mother fell she cant work so i cant afford to live in NY so now im gonna be homeless for sure when i get basck from mff because she will bemoving back upstate and leave me with no place to live fine if thats what she wants let her go ill just end up living under a bridge nice really nice and now my aunt hates me because i wont help out wWELL WTF HOW CANT YOU DO MORE WITH LESS WILL SWOMBODY TELL ME PLEASE???!!OR AM I REALLY GOING CRAZY HERE???!!! *feels like a loser and a failure* i m seriouly so close from juat walking into the ocean and never looking back because if nobody cares why the hell should i!! FACE IT I FAILED!!!!!! PURE AND SIMPLE!!!! :-( |
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[Oct. 31st, 2008|04:07 pm] |
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i know this is last minute but dam im all dressed up and no place to go anybody want to do anything with me for halloween tonight ?? |
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| need a new badge for my husky suit |
[Oct. 30th, 2008|07:04 pm] |
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i need a new badge for my husky fursuit any takers? if so let me know prices and other info *tailwags* |
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| GRRRRR!!! ive had it with drunks and filth!!! |
[Oct. 25th, 2008|03:21 pm] |
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OK i nneed to fucking vent here!!! ive just about had it with my mother i cant stand to live with a drunk pig in denial anymore anybody want a room mate?? i need to get out of here i apperently have till dec 1st to find a place to live im told im abusing her when shese trying spin things and make me out to be the bad guy. Im too the point where i just cant deal with her anymore she needs help telling me im the one abusing her?? WTF i dont fucking think so. all this because i dont want to hear about fucking horses every fucking day she crams it down my throat and im SICK OF IT. She just babbles on and on about horses and horse racing and im soooo fucking sick of it i could scream SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!! oh but god forbid if i talk about my hobby at all i get hell for it thats not right i make one comment about furry or furcons or even fursuits she has the
nerve to sit there and criticize me and throw it in my face by saying quote on quote "im not the one who parades around in a fursuit pretending hese a wolf"!! mocking and making fun of me WTF is that!!!?? its like my life is nothing but a joke to her well it wont be when she pushes me to take my life and im dead then weill see how much of a joke it really is. HOW DARE HER!!!!! and these cats of hers have destroyed the carpet in this apt i cant even walk in the rest of the apt without being disgusted and embarrased with the cat vommit stains. I have the right to walk on a clean floor dammit and she makes me live in filth with her and clean up after her cats thats not my respnosability but she wants to pass the buck on to sombody else and make them do itbecause she cant be bothered im not her fucking slave but if i dont doo what she demands i do i get told that im gonna be thrown out with no place to live and told that im nothing without her. These fucking cats they just keep making messes soo im confined to my bed room i feel like a fucking prisoner here and i need to get out here before i either go insane or im pushed to suicide im tired of living with this drunk pig i dont fucking need this!! she wants to chose alchohol and the nasty cats over her family she can can get the fuck out of my life im done!! I dont need a god dam fucking selfish selfcentered drunk in denial pig in my life >:-(
sombody help me before im forced to do somthing ill end up regretting!! |
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| random doodles at work and fursuit badge arts ^__^ |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|12:24 pm] |
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a chariciture doodle of me from my coworker Pranjit
Diamond Husky badge by Gothic Siamese
Diamond Husky badge by Ishawa |
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| disasterous AC con report |
[Jul. 11th, 2008|08:40 am] |
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dam i think id have to honestly say this was the first AC i wanted to bail on and i should have my new husky suit didnt get finished i had to cram to finish it at the con and its still not right no pics were taken of my suit and i wasnt even in the parade in the past 3 years ive been to ac ive never missed the parade and i still hate my self for it. The room plans got messed up also words of wisdom if your car cant accomidate 5 people comfortably dont try to exceed the limit. Sunday night i had an emotional melt down in the lobby i felt so isolated sad and alone with pcd do to the fact that the weekend was so disasterious thanx to Jetta for consoling me thanx hon *hugs* i hate getting like that but with eveything that went wrong that weekend i just lost it. In a way to dispite what happened it was nice to see all my buddies again and got to make new friends and i hope to see everybody again at MFF and hopefully next years ac will be a better to those i i didn't get a chance to meet up with that i said id meet up with im so sorry and ill find a way to make it up to you. ^__^ |
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| like omg i turn 30 next tuesday!!! *gasp* Oh noz!!! |
[Jul. 10th, 2008|03:59 pm] |
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hey im looking at celebrating my birthday next tuesday and wondered if anyboy cared to join me? yes oh noz what to do with a bondage wolfy on his birthday hehe |
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| lookig forward to another job ^__^ |
[Jul. 6th, 2008|06:14 pm] |
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this is just a heads up but if sombody could help me find a job doing somthing fury themed i need to get out of the dead end job im in now asap so i can move out of ny its just too expensive to live in NY |
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| i give UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Cries* |
[Jul. 1st, 2008|05:13 pm] |
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well this is great now i have no place to live i hope sombody can help me out HELP!!!!!!!!!!!! my Mother is at it again i cant take this shit no more now shes threatening to hire a laywer to get me to pay 1/2 the rent because ssi shorted me WTF!!!!!!!! JEESUS WHERE THE HELL IM I GONNA GET THE MONEY THAT I CANT GET I FEEL LIKE SERIOUSLY WANT TO COMIT SUICIDE RIGHT NOW IF SHE DOSNT CARE THHEN THEY WONT CARE IF IM DEAD!!!!!!!!!!! :-(
Sombody please help me because im tempted to take my life right now i cant put up with shit no more |
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| Seriously WTF Byhappyfeet.com ????/bit of of frustration |
[Jun. 13th, 2008|08:03 am] |
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Yeah seriously WTF ??!! i order from you and you tell me my order is Fulfilled then i call fedex to track the package they never got it so tell me WTF is going on here?? are you gonna send me my order or are you looking to rip me off here ?? i send you message after message and you seame to want to ignore me not right i put that order in speseficly so id get it 2 days later and i still havent gotten it!!!! :-( thats not good bussiness!!! |
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| still waiting on a commission/ building toony husky eyes |
[Jun. 11th, 2008|10:05 pm] |
hey all im still im still waiting on a footpaw commission for ac waiting and hoping but i figured id ask around does anybody know where i can find a toony eye template soo i can build the husky eyes is there a trick to cutting out the shape ? ummm sombody help? |
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